The Worst Feeling In The World

I will never forget that feeling of helplessness. It was a moment when I literally could do nothing but cry out for help. In that moment I felt so small, so useless. I’d like to be able to say I relied on my faith, experience, or calm personality in that moment of distress but I admit that I failed miserably. I hope that I never see that panicked side of myself again.

Matt was completely gone and in that twenty minutes, the most horrific scenarios flashed into my mind. “Somebody took him!” was my first thought. He was playing in the woods, fell down the hill, and is lying somewhere unconscious. Or maybe A wild animal took him away. My thoughts were racing out of control!

Even the most bizarre stories don't seem so bizarre in a moment of panic.

I called 911 immediately and then questioned as many neighbors as I could find. I ran all through the house thinking, “Could he have fallen asleep somewhere? Is he hiding from me?” After I tore the house apart, I quickly put on my running shoes and started covering as much outside ground as possible. I started screaming, praying, crying my eyes out, and I even tried to get the dog to help. "MATT! MATTY! LUKE WHERE IS MATTY? MATTY WHERE ARE YOU? I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO! DEAR JESUS, HELP ME FIND HIM!"

After what seemed like an eternity, I got a call from one of our neighbors wondering what was going on. At first she thought I had called looking for Luke, but I had managed to tell her that Matt had gone missing through my uncontrollable tears. Almost immediately I heard her scream, "Oh my goodness I see him under our picnic table in the backyard!"

Then I completely lost it out relief and joy. My baby is okay!!

He had walked three houses away, somehow got into our neighbor’s backyard, and was hiding under her picnic table. This was unusual behavior for him; he has always liked to stick close to the house. He had never done anything like that before and it became the perfect storm of panic.

I actually had a hard time disciplining him because I was just so happy that he was okay.

Don't worry he got a good talking too and he also got a visit from the officer that came by our house. After all was said and done, he's now scared to death about being eaten by a wild animal if he was to venture out on his own again!

I have learned that I panic easily in extreme situations and that the thought of losing a child is the worst feeling in the world. I’m just glad that Matty is okay and never wants to scare his mommy like that again (at least for the rest of this week).

I mean it when I say that this child is going to give me a heart attack (Next week)!!

Easter In Our Jammies

I really love the days when we have an excuse to do absolutely nothing. Jammies are mandatory, yummy food a must, and the only to-do on the agenda is the nap that’s been planned since ten that morning. That's what Easter looked like for us this year... the day couldn't have been more perfect! 

Grandpa and Grandma Wilt were in town. We had a great time laying around, watching the kids sugar level go up and down all day! Of course we dyed eggs and hunted for them, which is always a fun Easter tradition. The Easter bunny came and spoiled the kids with an abundance of cavity inducing treats and we spoiled ourselves with a prime rib dinner... yum!

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I was published in the most recent book by ClickinMoms called, Laughter. I was so honored to be included in a book with so many talented ladies! Mr. Matthew made it in twice; that goofy kid!

The images that made it in the book! Yes, his bum was published, hahahaha!!

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The Kind of Surprises That Keep Me Smiling

It’s the unpredictability in life that keeps me smiling. 

Let me clarify. 

I'm not a fan off all types of surprises. I don't necessarily like surprises when we are talking about presents; I'm not much of a gifts person. I also don't like the kind of surprise that involves my husband jumping out from behind a door; that just causes me to want to impulsively punch him in the face. But the kind of spontaneity that lends itself to last minute planning and unexpected circumstances allows life to be a little bit of a mysterious journey. 

When your schedule is inflexible there are so many missed opportunities and exciting experiences that will pass you by. Take what life gives you and enjoy it!

Last week was spring break for the kids and it couldn't of been more perfect. The weather was incredible! Dresses and flip-flops came out of hiding and skis and sleds were stored away. The warm sunshine was so refreshing!

This is what we woke up to Tuesday morning!

I love Colorado!